Friday, February 02, 2007
is some encouragement just so hard to give? to someone who you live with everyday and someone you call brother.
man. would it hurt to do that?
and wtf is wrong with me trying to help YOUR blood brother. i didnt have much support during that horrible period for me and so i do not want that to happen to your brother too. were my intentions wrong? bloody hell. i can simply not give a damn about it. why must i bother.
sometimes i think you have to start learning. start giving. instead of always taking. there are so many people around you giving to you. when have you really given your heart and soul. and why must you always say things that you dont really mean and yet can be quite hurtful. why this perverse attitude. i dun get it. i still dun get it.
and i thought by giving unconditionally will help. sometimes i just feel so disappointed but i wun give up. thats for sure. something that i built up after all these time. and i m determined to change that attitude. somehow.
he doesnt get the idea that life is all about learning and changing. you grow and you change, for the better. you dun stay put and dehumanise.
wtf man.. i shall just concentrate on my A lvls spa tmr.
and.. happy 18th bdae mel! =)
; 11:44 PM
