Sunday, September 28, 2008
last sunday... drove the car on my own for the first time! yays. in 30mins, i managed to collect restless dvd from kianeik. meet anh to pass her deo's present and be early for the meeting with the dancers at dempsey! haha. the power of having transport. LOL
so.. this friday.. going out with bsu! hopefully my mum doesnt use the car.. then we can go to anywhere in spore! LOL. will be damn fun! yays!.. haven seen everyone for quite some time eh.. lol
and mel is going on and on about zouk halloween. lol... so long haven went clubbing with the upper west siders. LOL. i wanna go MAMBO!. lol
finished one exercise le. and now moving on to the next stage in training. where things are going to get tough. sighhhhh.. hahha.. but ya.. cant wait to start drawing my 3sg pay with extras! LOL
okies. back to muggin. this feels like A-s again. just that.. fail = no wkend.
; 2:10 PM
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
EOD :)
4 mins to save the world! haha.. how true now! lol
8 weeks to 3sg rank. woohooo.. and i'm sure training now would be much more meaningful and fun...
EOD sounds like the army's version of ac dance. i cant wait to go there. and i get to have a dog! how cool. lol... let me go for ops now!! hahaha!
after the end of the basic engr course.. well.. engr isiznt that bad after all.. as warrant ross would say.. the only easy day is yesterday....
but i cant wait for the tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow!!! ORD plans are already in the process!!! hahaha.. going to syndey to visit kalai after ORD! so cool right. i just need to start saving for my budget airline ticket and some money for shopping and entertainment! kalai is going to lend me her place to sleep, crash her uni, eat her food.... and hsilyiang might be joining me on this trip! so fun! we will crash the waves in the afternoon.. go up the mountains in the morning.. and club at night! I CANT WAIT. lol.
; 10:53 PM
Thursday, September 04, 2008
i m out of camp again. but not for a good reason.
on my way back yesterday. i lost my camp pass. that is equals to 50bucks fine, police report and 3 extras. sigh. on a positive note. at least the extras arent served this wkend! :) so i should treasure it and use it before my next 3 wkends get burnt. i hope it doesnt clash with bt3p! =X
the way i lost the camp pass was unbelievable. it was just like 60m since i last checked it. and i actually cannot retreive it back even though i knew the exact route i walked for that 60m. most probably it got swept away by some car or it went str8 into the drain.
bad luck.
or mabbe He is teaching me a lesson thru this. haha. shall just wait and see..
i think i am falling sick soon =X
; 8:53 PM
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
nights out! yays. finally. basic phase of engineer is coming to an end. yays
today had my cbre interview. and woah. they sure did their research on me. lol.. the interview went quite well.. except that i didnt really like the way i was speaking. sounded like kalai. lol. i dunno why. haha. told them i wanna be in EOD. (explosive ordinance disposal) cool stuff eh. see wads the outcome on tues then. haha
well.. after my birthday. did some thinking and some talking with kalai. and i realised. WO BIAN LE. haha. changed quite abit since enlistment. i lost a whole lot of myself. i stopped being excitied about so many things. not excitied about my bday! haha. i stopped doing my one month advertising campaign. i didnt plan anything for myself. cant be bothered. i stopped dressing up. lost my fashion sense. lol. i stopped wanting to make friends. i stopped being nice to others.
this struck me especially when my buddy was talkin me about me to others when i was trying to sleep. haha. its true. i go into the bunk. message and message and message.. stare at my photos then sleep. i dont bother to get to know others or let others know me. this is not good.
so well.. its time to pick up the pieces and find myself back. time to feel happy all the time again. time to live again! =D new goals . great old friends
; 8:19 PM
Sunday, August 31, 2008
i guess today marks the end of celebrating bday! haha
my 19th bday was the total opposite of wad i had expected. i was thinking of letting this year's bday just past and ya.. since i m in e army.. its kinda sian.. but yet.. this is one of the most meaningful and happening one i ever had.
first was peter.. randomly called me up and dated me out. didnt want to tell me where we were going and it was all so last min. so met up with malvin and peter. went to sicc. had damn alot of food and bowled. haha. THANK YOU PETER! paid for everything that night =X then went to his house. watched p.s i love you. which peter fell asleep totally.
then was the family reunion dinner with ah ma and the whole family. that was the most emo celebration i guess.. cos my ah ma wanted to sit with me and stuff.. and she had to be in the wheelchair with the tubes on.. so i was quite sad.. since just 2 months ago she was still so healthy looking.. godma bought a cake and celebration my sister and my bday. haha. quite funny.. cos the last time we had our bdays together celebrated with the family was when i was 7?.. lol.. and ah ma didnt stay till the end cos she said she felt uncomfortable.. but she called me the next day.. haha.. my ah ma rocks lah xD
then was with mel cindy pearl and spens. the upper west siders. haha. that i must apologise to them cos i was in a rush that day.. we went to carnivore to have lunch. but really thank them esp SPENCER AND MEL who went shopping for my present. LOL. they are crazy this year lah.. bought a whole lot of stuff for me.. and i do know why.. haha.. thanks for showing the love! =D its really comforting! :)
next up was with hsilyiang, FAVESENIOR! haha.. had a stayover at his place.. had alot of fun rolling and bouncing around. lol. trying to do piruoettes and turns in his room.. watched restless 5 together. went thru pics.. lol. man we both need hair yea.. haha.. and i love his present for me. lol. finally knew wad i wanted. hahaa. since he has all the money in the world.. any material gift that he buys cant compare to the effort he puts in to celebrate for you. haha. i love my faveS! =D
then was with the dancers. credit goes to raj and yuwei.. haha.. planned and included all the mini surprises on the way.. and of cos peter.. who had to sacrifice his virgin eyes to do some stuff.. and all of them came despite having to pay a hefty sum of money =X for the room and the giangantic cake. lol. it was really funny. have been planning so much stuff for others.. that i forgottened how it is liked to have something planned for me.. haha.. thank you friends!
lastly.. was with the class. went to a high class place. lol. celebrated adlin and my bday.. haha.. the class still feels the same.. although joy and kalai are deeply missed. haha.. it was fun lah.. having to meet up with them again.. with all the horny talk which crept back just before we left. LOL.
and of cos.. all the people who wished me thru sms and fb. haha.. and kalai who called me since at australia's 12am.. and chatted till spore's 12am. lol. i was dying on the phone.. damn sleepy. lol. and her present all the way from australia! haha.. really gald to have a friend in her. shes one solid friend i took away from AC. its always when one leaves that you realise how much you treasure.. but at least its not too late now still.. hahaha..
thank you friends. thank you for making me feel loved. thank you for affiriming the fact that you will be around even though you may be in AUSTRALIA or busy with your own life. haha.. i m really gald to have all these friends around. and i hope everyone will stay happy eh! and that i can be a blessing to them too! =D I LOVE YOU ALL! xD
; 8:05 PM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Happy Ending
This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love
Like it's forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life
But not together.
A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love....
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I waste everyday
This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life
But not together.
; 10:30 PM
out of sispec. into engineers.
wad an irony. i hate engineering. lol
everyone is leaving! sigh. first was kalai. then steph. jo left too. next is liz.. and i think my ah ma wun make it past this year.. which is wad the doc says too. the cancer cells have spread to many places. yes. i studied bio. i know wad does that mean. and i know that the adults know it too.. cos my uncle flew back from hongkong on national day. things felt werid when ah ma hasnt called me for quite some time and so i called her.. she said she didnt want to talk much becos she was feeling breathless. next thing i knew.. she was hospitalised again. now that shes out. i went to visit her with my mummy and sisters. she looked so frail and lost so much weight. even more than the last time i met her. she has an oxygen machine with her at home 24/7. when she woke up and saw us. first thing she said was.. ah ben ah.. your birthday is coming right. then she told my godma to go take the ang bao. i felt like crying but i couldnt since everyone was pretending to be so happy.. the cousins joking around, the adults smiling and all.. but the weight loss and worn out faces were obvious. ah ma had always made it a point to remember my bday.. i remember back in secondary school.. she would bring the ang bao to me. and this is the first year she couldnt. she would always say.. come.. ah ma treat you to han bao bao on your bday. and now stepping out of the house seems impossible. when i helped her sit up straight.. her arms were so skinny it felt like it would break if i used more force.. when i was young.. i would always get blocked nose at night due to sinus.. and ah ma would always wake up in the middle of the night to rub my back with vicks to help me breathe better and make me sleep... when mummy canned me.. ah ma would be the first to shield me physically. ah ma never expected me to become the greatest businessman or to become the doctor, lawyer or the accountant.. she always said to me kai xin jiu hao.. and i really hope that at this last leg of her life.. kai xin jiu hao
; 10:14 PM
